He's breaking me.
He says the right things, he loves me, we'll be together, he's never felt like this before - physically or mentally and many more. So why are we miles apart and no where near being together?
Because of his baggage that's why. I know that.
I wouldn't nor couldn't tell him when or how he should tell them he's leaving but it's getting hard, I manage to whisper as the tears well up, running down my cheeks.
He thinks he's upset me and he can't get off the phone quick enough, asks me to call him in the morning.
I want him to see this side of me, I'm not a naturally strong person - just stupid when it comes to men! Dealing with this while still living with BF, the job situation and not to forget the bloody annoying neighbour is hard and I don't think I can carry on much longer. My own fault of course!
I kinda (no kinda I wanted him to!) hoped he'd text to make sure I'm OK but nothing. Perhaps he thinks I'm putting this on. I am capable but these are real tears of sadness.
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Ok, in a rare moment of weakness, I actually would hug you right now...I can't offer you advice because I see people differently to you, but you are stronger than you think, you've coped up to now. And you truly need to make a huge decision, easier said than done, but I made choices even with a kid in tow. I believe you can do the right thing, just believe in yourself, because if you don't who else will? Oh and I adjusted my blog, because I came across as calling you mardy...when infact i meant it a completely different way!!
*hugs* Angel...please don't let anyone know I can be nice...our secret right?